Faith

Guilt, Complacency, Comparison and the Holy Spirit

We have many friends and acquaintances who are neck deep in true religion. They’re adopting. Or mentoring. Or fostering. Or advocating. They’re giving hard. And the guilt runs deep. Because I compare and feel ashamed. Ashamed of my frustration over croup. Ashamed that we don’t have an inclination to adopt. Ashamed of how little we’ve done for the kingdom. ______________ We have many friends and acquaintances who are neck...
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Faith

Why I Gossip and How I’ve (Mostly) Stopped

I hate to admit that I struggle with gossip. I’d rather downplay it. The reality is, I don’t gossip with very many people. And therefore I’ve justified it as okay. But it’s not. And I’d like to say it’s something I put aside years ago. But that’s not true either. I can say that I’m much improved over the last year or so. But I can’t say that’s from...
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As a Family

Why I’m Teaching Our Kiddos Hymns

“One of our great idolatries, yours and mine, comes from our loss of memory, of respect for the past; we become locked in the present moment, no longer able to judge and discern the good from the mediocre. We forget in the entertainment of the moment to bring with us the best of what God’s gifted men and women have given us, and to maintain a standard for what...
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Faith

Looking Beyond Actions

I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that I think you can swear without sinning. And wear a bikini without sinning. And tune out a sermon without sinning. And not tithe without sinning. You know what I don’t think we can do without sinning? Hold malice in our hearts. Show unkindness. Mistreat our families. Think we’re better than those around us because they’re swearing or...
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Faith

My Kids Wrecked Me

Once upon a time in a far away land I thought I had it all together. Many others seemed to agree with me. Branded the good girl and determined to live up to it, I played the game rather splendidly. Marriage slowed down my game. Some great friends ignored the rules and scoffed at having it all together. But my kids. They wrecked me. Because there are no medals...
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As a Grownup

No Easy Answers

My daughter asks the questions. She’s not the rule follower I was. And there are no easy answers. Not to the important stuff. Have we pretended there are? Have we deceived our children into thinking that if they hold tightly enough to the proof texts they won’t need to question? Because the real answer is… I don’t know. It’s complicated. But I’d be happy to wrestle with it alongside...
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Faith

On the Internet and Losing our Instinct

The Internet has been so good to me in many ways. I have found friends. Reconnected with old ones. Blog posts have encouraged me, challenged my ideas and forced me to see beyond my little bubble of a world. I am grateful for the tool that is the Internet. Yet, I have Googled some ridiculous stuff. Desperate for a magic bullet I have reached out into the vast ocean...
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